Im down here in the very sunny (read: Humid) Florida; muttering about the despicable nature of July, and how it hates me for abandoning it to be a June child instead when I was born.

I find myself being torn between being laid back and having fun, and being so wound up and tense from being aware of my responsibilities, friends, family, and my own life in general. *chuckles* I just need to find my inbetween. Someplace where I just let it go, but have enough edge and awareness to go for the things I want instead of letting things fall apart with a "Who cares?" mentality.

At the moment, I cannot find the place between my brain being on full workload, thinking, analyzing, evaluating, and in general, just being a fuckin buzz kill (Keep it down Grandpa Ryan!), or simply being off and being zoned out, laid back, and incapable of using my talents (That's right, kitten herding is a talent.)

Boosh, rollercoasters are my salvation I believe. Or to be more specific, simply going along for the ride, dealing with things as they come, and not planning nor expecting what is to come, is what will allow me to throw my hands in the air and scream "I LOVE CURSING IN PUBLIC WHEN THEY CANT DO ANYTHING TO STOP ME! DOUCHEBAG TWATFACE!"...
Usually the parents on the rollercoaster with me are not as happy as I am.

Everyone needs a hobby dammit.
Cockblockers.